Tami, my MC
I want to write about my new story idea because I think, and I hope, that it will help me to write it better.
I don’t want to spoiler the whole idea or the ending of the book, but rather talk about my main character and her struggle, which is, well, I guess pretty much the core of the whole story, but well. I hope you get me. I try to distract it a bit from the plot, that’s what I am trying to say. Argh.. maybe I should go to sleep. But not yet.
So, the story is about Tami. My idea is, that she is a "normal" woman, maybe around 26 years old, working as a kindergarten teacher. She has a boyfriend. She has some friends. Everything is ok. She is fine, right?
Well... The truth is that she is not sailing her own boat. She doesn’t even have a boat. She is sitting on an old, unknown vessel going anywhere (Sorry for my poor and so very maritime metaphors these days, but I feel like I have to do it.). I want to say: She is a bit lost. She doesn’t really know who she is. She feels numbed by her life she is barely living really. She is passively going with whatever is coming her way. Navigating barely.
But it’s not like she has no face, no feelings, no character, no voice. It’s more like she cannot feel or hear herself well. She never explored herself. She just doesn’t know what’s inside of her. Her pieces are blurred.
Is she unhappy? The thing is: She doesn't even know. It's not bad enough, really. She wouldn’t complain. Is she depressed? Maybe.
I don’t want you or me to pity her. I want to like her. Or at least I guess what I want is that we can understand her a bit. I want her to be relatable. I mean I can relate, kind of.
The twist of my story idea is that she… well. One day she snaps. Something in her has enough, wants something else, more. What that is and if she gets it, that's what I am figuring out right now. But that is basically Tami's core, I would say. That’s the basis on which the story will unfold.